A child’s happy face
A starry night and peaceful place
I never thought them beautiful before
Those days we met for coffee
Talked and laughed so loudly
I never thought I’d missed that before
Then today they told me
My world turned black and I couldn’t see
The life I’d wanted for so long
Now I don’t know what to do or say
Tell me should I go or should I stay
Try to give me something real to hold on to
I try so hard to carry on
Sometimes l really want to cry
It is you that stands behind me and keeps me strong
Oooooh Baby please don’t go
Oooooh you’ve got to know
Oooooh Just hold my hand
Oooooh I need you so
I still remember what you said
About growing old and being wed
I always thought it was gonna be that way
Then one day they told me
My world turned black and l couldn’t see
The life I’d wanted for so long
I still don’t know what to do or say
Tell me should l go or should l stay
Try to give me something real to hold on to
I tried so hard to carry on
Sometimes l really want to cry
But it’s you that stands behind me and keeps me strong
Now I don’t know what to do or say
Tell me should l go or should l stay
Try to give me something real to hold on to
I tried so hard to carry on
Sometimes l really want to cry
It’s you that stands behind me and keeps me strong
Oooooh Baby please don’t go
Oooooh you’ve got to know
Oooooh Just hold my hand
Oooooh I need you so
有人说时间是人类给自己自定义的标签，为了方便整理，除此之外并不具有特别的意义。
我曾经有个名字里有“春”的朋友，当我知道初中毕业后我们从此选择不同轨迹的时候，我第一次对人与人这样无法永远稳定延续的关系感到绝望，那个暑假，我哭了很多次，但不是为了那个朋友，她是必然会在我的未来消失的人，我也是再无可能走进她未来的人。失望的人可能还会借着希望之光再次期盼和相信，但是一旦定位成绝望，就是给一句话加上了句号且再无更改的可能。我总觉得权先生在现在的我看来过于完美，或许我以前是相信的，相信那样完美的人格的确存在，并把那样凛然的品格投射到我眼里看到的人身上。后来，我只愿把那些完美投射在东野奎吾的作品里，对，那是他用文字编织给我看的幻境，只有在幻境里的片刻我才选择相信，就像卡尔西法说“声音里有良辰美景”，我也自甘在闲暇之时入他编织的幻境。不然，林语堂之于胡适，我又该以什么样的态度看待，我只能坚信那是不可避免的一段旅程，不可惜，不遗憾。
若说，要打破这幻境，挑几部美剧看看，绝对比什么效果都好，无论是《纸牌屋》、《绝望的主妇》、还是《权利的游戏》，在他们这里，从来不吝啬还原现实的本质。
时隔16年，当我一看到他们沿着半旋的楼道登上顶楼我就明白了，我在几年前就已经亲自去过那里，我在那里走了一圈，唯独为塔楼那个红色的木门拍过一张照片。我有些吃惊，有些迷糊，为什么我无意中会踩到过去已被隐藏的东西，一件又一件，它们似乎都是些微不足道的片段，本不该被复现。